Who am I?
Well, I am unsure sometimes. It seems that over the years I have become a bit of a chameleon. I have gone from manufacturing furniture to writing soap operas and back to furniture.
I have gone from working with furniture and polyurethane factory setups to working in film again when I decided to take on a job as the COO for MD Pictures, the first ever and largest film studio in Indonesia.
Then I ended up writing a pile of books just out of spite when someone told me I couldn’t do it. I guess that is who I am. However, I am far less competitive than I used to be.
Back in the competitive days, I hated to lose. Not like anyone likes to lose but I hated it. I was quite a different person on the soccer field and off. On the field, you better have not been in my way, but off the field, I stayed out of everyone’s way.
I was shy, I was.
No way of telling now, but I was awfully shy. I hated being in the spotlight or having my name called out. I am not thrilled about it now but I have overcome this shyness over the years and I am quite comfortable in my current situation. Being on TikTok live every day sure has its advantages and its downfalls I guess. I often get recognized now and I do feel a bit shy by the recognition. Then I pretend I am on TikTok Live and it goes away quite quickly.
However, I still do blush when being called out on certain things, so I guess it’s not all as easy as it seems. On TikTok there is a filter, that filter is me. I read and respond to what I want to want to respond to. Often I ignore stupid or rude questions. Then depending on the mood I may or may not pick apart the individual.
So that’s me.
I sure have changed over the years. Deep down I am the same. I don’t believe people change. I make do without my routine for a few days, but then I like to go back to being me.
However, the personal branding and the struggle if you will, of always putting myself out there in situations that I am a little uncomfortable with. I am still at times shy but I manage. I am still me despite trying not to be at times.
In the grand scheme of things, by doing things I am capable of but sometimes not wanting to make the changes happen.
Not sure if that makes sense. But now, I am not nearly as competitive with others, as I am with myself. I push myself to learn things like editing, and making a fool of myself on TikTok. In the end, I am winning, I am growing and people are getting to know me.
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