Music to give you strength. 

Never on your side. 

I recently came across a song on YouTube. Motorhead, God Was Never on Your Side. I listened to the song. Besides the fact that I thought I was hearing myself singing, I was struck by the lyrics. I write a lot of poetry and some I guess could be songs. However, as I listened I had to find the original music video to go with it. When I did, the song made so much more sense. 

A man who is homeless wonders about his life and is sad about his state of existence, until he comes across a little boy. This makes him realize that his life may not be as bad, not as bad as it may be for the child on the streets. As the two of them hug at the end of the video it makes one realize that many people in this world have it so much worse than you. 

Questioning God.

I like the video because I am not religious. Questioning God for me is a totally normal thing. Why all the suffering, wars, and death in this world… I’ll never know and no matter what you tell me about how why, and what God’s plan is about all that, I won’t believe you. 

One thing is true, we all live in our little bubbles. When our little bubble bursts it is the end of our world. Our little mind focuses on our problem as they should. Yet looking at the big picture we have very few problems compared to others. I wiped out on my scooter. I was in pain. However, in the grand scheme of things, I was not the one shot in the war between Ukraine and Russia. Nor am I starving in some scary part of the world. Yet when I fell, it was terribly painful. I didn’t think of the people in the war. I thought about myself.

So the song touched me.

Since I am a writer, I hate trying to figure out what lyrics mean. I could be crying over my puppy and it could sound like I broke up with my girlfriend. So no need to try but sometimes lyrics touch you and that is what it’s all about. 

During my ex-wife’s struggle with alcohol, I had a hard time going home each day. If it weren’t for the kids I would never have stood by her for 5 years. However, Blue October Hate Me, gave me the strength to get through the rough times. So while I try not to let songs affect me, there are quite a few in my life that can bring me happiness and instant sadness. Music can touch us deeply and I find it amazing how words can touch us, inspire us, or bring us down. This is probably one reason I love to write. 

You are the God of your world.

I have said this before and will say it again. Especially during COVID, this was the escape. Writing and going off into my own little world was exciting. I can be anything, do anything and be anything I wanted to be. Many people do not have this way of escaping. I am happy my blog and my writing can pull things out of my brain, much like a diary I can put things to bed so to speak.


Published by Zsolt Zsemba

Zsolt Zsemba has worn many different hats. He has been an entrepreneur, and businessman for over 30 years. Living abroad has given him many amazing experiences in life and also sparked his imagination for writing. After moving to Canada from Hungary at the age of 10 and working in a family business for a large part of his life. The switch from manufacturing to writing came surprisingly easily for him. His passion for writing began at age 12, mostly writing poetry and short stories. In 1999, the chance came to write scripts. Zsolt took some time off from his family business to write in Jakarta Indonesia for MD Entertainment. Having written dozens of soap operas and made for TV movies, in 2003 Zsolt returned to the family business once more. In 2018, he had the chance to head back to Asia once again. He took on the challenge to be the COO for MD Pictures and get back into the entertainment business. The entertainment business opened up the desire to write once more and the words began to flow onto the pages again. He decided to rewrite a book he began years ago. Organ House was reborn and is a fiction suspense novel while Scars is a young adult drama focused on life’s challenges. After the first two books, his desire to write not only became more challenging but enjoyable as well. After having several books completed he was convinced to publish them for your enjoyment. Zsolt does not tend to stay in one specific genre but tends to lean towards strong female leads and horror. Though he also has a few human interest books, he tends to write about whatever brews in his brain for a while.

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