Never on your side.
I recently came across a song on YouTube. Motorhead, God Was Never on Your Side. I listened to the song. Besides the fact that I thought I was hearing myself singing, I was struck by the lyrics. I write a lot of poetry and some I guess could be songs. However, as I listened I had to find the original music video to go with it. When I did, the song made so much more sense.
A man who is homeless wonders about his life and is sad about his state of existence, until he comes across a little boy. This makes him realize that his life may not be as bad, not as bad as it may be for the child on the streets. As the two of them hug at the end of the video it makes one realize that many people in this world have it so much worse than you.
I like the video because I am not religious. Questioning God for me is a totally normal thing. Why all the suffering, wars, and death in this world… I’ll never know and no matter what you tell me about how why, and what God’s plan is about all that, I won’t believe you.
One thing is true, we all live in our little bubbles. When our little bubble bursts it is the end of our world. Our little mind focuses on our problem as they should. Yet looking at the big picture we have very few problems compared to others. I wiped out on my scooter. I was in pain. However, in the grand scheme of things, I was not the one shot in the war between Ukraine and Russia. Nor am I starving in some scary part of the world. Yet when I fell, it was terribly painful. I didn’t think of the people in the war. I thought about myself.
So the song touched me.
Since I am a writer, I hate trying to figure out what lyrics mean. I could be crying over my puppy and it could sound like I broke up with my girlfriend. So no need to try but sometimes lyrics touch you and that is what it’s all about.
During my ex-wife’s struggle with alcohol, I had a hard time going home each day. If it weren’t for the kids I would never have stood by her for 5 years. However, Blue October Hate Me, gave me the strength to get through the rough times. So while I try not to let songs affect me, there are quite a few in my life that can bring me happiness and instant sadness. Music can touch us deeply and I find it amazing how words can touch us, inspire us, or bring us down. This is probably one reason I love to write.
You are the God of your world.
I have said this before and will say it again. Especially during COVID, this was the escape. Writing and going off into my own little world was exciting. I can be anything, do anything and be anything I wanted to be. Many people do not have this way of escaping. I am happy my blog and my writing can pull things out of my brain, much like a diary I can put things to bed so to speak.