A Dark Poem For Today.

Do you know what I mean?

I decided that today it shall rain. Pay tribute to all that awake with pain. Make them see and feel that they are not alone. No, I am not in pain, nor am I lost. Maybe in my thoughts, I have slipped up. It is but a mere moment I have come across. It’s a fleeting second where my brain let me down. Come, come here, pick me up off the ground. In the thick of things, my mind has wandered. This day is gloomy and murky, I have lost my way. My compass is broken, I walk in circles, and I sit and wait.

With the rain, I weep this morning.

Why do you weep; I ask myself.

The rain reminds me of you, I said.

Darkness, cold, and hopelessness.

In the morning when I awake.

Was still dark from the night before.

I await the glow of day.

Anxiety and fear fill my head.

Now I think of heading back to bed.

With the rain, I shed my tears.

Raindrops are my camouflage.

No one can see my tears today.

The misery I hide, the happiness I seek.

I oppose myself each day and night.

Nothing appears to be going right.

I await you at dawn, my love.

You shed light on my darkness.

Yet satisfaction you do not bring.

With each day, my hope fades.

May I awake one more day?

Save me before I choose not to rise.

Save me, help me… Let me be. I want you; I need you… Go away. Let me sulk in my darkness, I want more pain. Come take me away to a better place.

Why do you torture me so? Why do you make me think and think some more? Why do you sit on my shoulders and weigh me down? I put you on a soft pillow, each night. I hope for peace, yet you never stop. I try to turn you off, but you never stop. This is why I need the rain, so I may pour out all the pain.

BTW I am fine, it is just a poem for today because it rained.

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Published by Zsolt Zsemba

Zsolt Zsemba has worn many different hats. He has been an entrepreneur, businessman for over 30 years. Living abroad has given him many amazing experiences in life and also sparked his imagination for writing. After moving to Canada from Hungary at the age of 10 and working in a family business for a large part of his life. The switch from manufacturing to writing came surprisingly easily for him. His passion for writing began at age 12, mostly writing poetry and short stories. In 1999, the chance came to write scripts. Zsolt took some time off from his family business to write in Jakarta Indonesia for MD Entertainment. Having written dozens of soap operas and made for TV movies, in 2003 Zsolt returned to the family business once more. In 2018, he had the chance to head back to Asia once again. He took on the challenge to be the COO for MD Pictures and get back into the entertainment business. The entertainment business opened up the desire to write once more and the words began to flow onto the pages again. He decided to rewrite a book he began years ago. Organ House was reborn and is a fiction suspense novel while Scars is a young adult drama focused on life’s challenges. After the first two books, his desire to write not only became more challenging but enjoyable as well. After having several books completed he was convinced to publish them for your enjoyment. Zsolt does not tend to stay in one specific genre but tends to lean towards strong female leads and horror. Though he also has a few human interest books, he tends to write about whatever brews in his brain for a while.

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