My Devious Plan Part 3.
The Plan Goes Ahead. No Stopping now!
On my wedding day, I never imagined that I would be going through such terrible things. Taking children away from their mom, having to make such choices in life is unimaginable.
I had to be strong, not to give in to the tears, the crying and the pain. Knowing I needed to do this for the family was my only consolation. I knew that for us to move forward as a family and to stay together this must be done.
The kids and I drove to a hotel, it was near the airport because my ex would need to fly out to the rehabilitation location of her choice and we would be close when she leaves.
Going Through with the Plan. No Stopping Now!
Going through this was not easy. I talked to my ex and made sure she understood all this clearly. Surprisingly enough she did. She was sober for the moment since it was early morning. She made the calls… I was shocked and surprised that she made the calls quickly. The places were ready for the call and to my surprise, she picked one, booked it and even bought a plane ticket.
She was to fly out the very next day. I was elated. It seemed to finally work. The only thing I could think of was… I should have done this so long ago.
We Don’t Know… What We Don’t Know…
We are all human.
-We cannot go to the service center and replace a part.
-A motherboard cannot be exchanged for a new one or upgraded in our brain.
-We think a lot and procrastinate a lot, especially over very difficult decisions.
Yes, this move I should have made years ago. It is a decision that did not come quickly. It took me several calls with my support person from Al-Anon to realize that the inevitable decision is to ask, send, force my ex to go to rehab. This takes time. Time on my part, that I have done every exhaustible thing from my end to fix things.
I had done everything. I failed.
I thought I had failed, I truly did. Sending her off to rehab was my failure because I couldn’t fix her. This was a very wrong way of thinking. I knew this only after she had left and only after lengthy consultations with Al-Anon.
I thought I had failed. Yet in the end, I succeeded by accomplishing the impossible. Sending off a loved one, even a hated loved one was an accomplishment. I didn’t hate my ex at the time. I hated what she had become. I didn’t fail, I succeeded in trying to fix the family, doing my best to save the family. So, in the end, I succeeded. But how will all this play out?
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